My name is Brian Corbin, but most people know me as Profetech on TastyFresh. I was asked to share and it’s my pleasure to share my testimony with you in hopes that it will encourage others.

I was born and raised in Phoenix Arizona and have lived here all my life. I come from a good Christian home with a loving family and parents that did their best to raise my sister and I. This isn’t to say that we didn’t have problems at times, but my parents did their best to raise us in the things of God. I got saved at a young age and I remember my parents praying with me. Growing up, I was very skinny during grade school and didn’t have many friends. When I got to Junior High I gained a lot of weight because I got put on a drug called Riddlin. My parents put me on it because I had so much energy I couldn’t concentrate at school. So I went from being picked on when I was thin to now being picked on for being fat. Kids or people in general can be mean sometimes and not know how much damage is caused to the other person. The Bible talks about how life and death are in the power of the tongue.

Now growing up things in my family we’re pretty good, except between my Dad and I. We started to grow apart because of some things that happen while I was growing up, and so I really didn’t want to talk to him much nor hang around him at times. I remember many times where it seemed like anything I did for my Dad was never right and I always was getting yelled at. Now my Mom and I had a great relationship and I could always talk to her about anything, which is good, because my life was getting ready to make a turn for the worst. Around this time I was in Junior High at a private Christian School and also right in the middle of puberty which sort of messes with your mind. It was during this time that I started to notice that I had attractions to some of the guys at my school. Now I thought that maybe it was nothing and that it would just go away, but I noticed the feelings and attractions for other guys was getting stronger. I really didn’t have an attraction to girls growing up at this time. I just saw them as friends and that was it.

After junior high, I went to a public high school, and what a change that was. Now I was in a totally different environment and it was uncomfortable. I started to get picked on a lot by people in class, especially in my gym class. Some of it was because I was somewhat overweight and also didn’t fit in with their crowd. Now this didn’t help at all with my self-esteem or the secret feelings I was keeping inside that I didn’t people to know. I remember being in gym class and on a few occasions, some of the guys in the class calling me homo or gay, etc. Now I freaked out because I hadn’t told anyone about my feelings for guys, etc. Now maybe they saw me looking at others guy in the locker room while changing out, but other than that I don’t know. It just was not a very great time for me. In fact others started to hear things by rumors from these guys in gym class. Luckily it mostly stayed in gym class and didn’t spread to the whole school.

It was also during this time in my four years of high school that my family got a computer. Now this was good in that I was great with computers and technology and had always wanted one. It was bad because I got the Internet at my house and I started visiting places online that were not good for me. Being I was smart with technology, I learned quickly how to find these porn sites. The thing was I was mostly interested in gay porn and it just fed my desire to have more and more perversion. I remember on many occasions my mom walking in on me and wondering what I was doing on the computer and that was very awkward. But I learned quickly how to hide windows on the computer so that she didn’t see what I was doing. But she did become aware that I was going places I shouldn’t and confronted me on it a couple of times that she didn’t want that perversion in her house.

Now being raised in a Christian home, I went to church on Sunday, even when I didn’t want to go and my parents made me. Now I had been raised in different types of Christian churches and saw many things during this time. For one I saw a lot of religion and how it hurt people. Now mind you I didn’t know this at the time, but now I’m able to look back at what I saw and how it hurt people, including me. I remember being in youth group and never fitting in. It had all these clicks with the cheerleaders being in a click, the jocks in another click, and even some of the main youth leaders participated in these clicks. So you really didn’t know where you fit in and you should have seen some of the looks I got when I tried to talk to people. So mostly I just stood by myself in the middle of the room until the youth service started. It was really, really sad. I never felt welcome and come to find out I knew others that went that felt the exact same way. So a lot of us didn’t want to go to youth church and just hung out in the main service with the adults. At least there I didn’t get looked down on or segregated for the most part. But the times that I did go to the youth church I did have a few good youth leaders that were pretty cool to me, so I give props to them for not conforming to the ways of others in the youth church. Some of the other things that really freaked me out are when they would teach on stuff dealing with homosexuality and how these kinds of people were going to burn in hell, etc. That was not the thing you want to hear when you are struggling with something you didn’t ask for. So of course I was not going to tell people about what I was struggling with as I might get burned at the steak. From that point on I thought I was going to hell so I was freaked out about the rapture coming all the time and me being left behind.

One thing I got really good at was being a hypocrite. I could play the part of being a great Christian and then in secret I had a second life if you will with the struggles of homosexuality. When I got into college I just kept living in my secret sin. By then I started to believe Satan’s lie that I was born that way and that there is nothing I can do about it. It was after a few years of college that I dropped out because it wasn’t exactly what I wanted. So I got a good paying job with a local school district working in computers. It was during this time that I also met a new friend. He was a DJ and into the rave and dance scene. We became pretty good friends and decided to get an apartment together. Now he didn’t know about my struggle, but over time of living with each other it became apparent. Things seemed to be good except now I started to have feelings for my friend and roommate and it wasn’t good. I went to church just because I was involved in the tech ministry but really wasn’t learning anything. It just wasn’t real to me. In fact I didn’t tithe a lot of the time and used the money for other things.

I remember my roommate telling me that he did drugs and while talking to him in his room I saw this little square looking thing on his dresser in a small plastic bag. I asked him what it was and he said it was acid. Now drugs have never been something that appealed to me, but who you surround yourself with you will start to act like or become. So I asked him if I could try it. At first he was going to let me, but them all of a sudden he took the acid and threw it in the toilet and flushed it. I got upset and asked why he did that. He said that he had met my parents and liked them and didn’t want to have to tell them that he killed their son because he gave him acid and had a bad trip and died. So the Lord protected me right in the middle of my mess. After almost a year, our friendship turned for the worst. We started fighting about stuff and mostly it was because I was playing the hypocrite. So he was seeing my double standard and also started to see my attraction to him. So he decided to move out and our friendship ended on bad terms. From this point I started to get deeper in my sin. I would talk to guys online and on the phone for sexual reasons. I also lived on my own for a year and then also had a few more roommates. Through it all I still lived the double standard and it hurt those other roommates as well and those friendships also ended on bad terms. It was then I moved back home for part of a year to get caught up on finances and then moved back out again. I know my mom knew more of what was going on because she could see it in my life that I was not happy like I used to be growing up. She could see the depression I was trying to hide in my life.

After getting a little caught up in finances, I decided to move out on my own again and by myself with no roommate. This again was bad as the enemy had me alone again and with no accountability so I could so whatever I wanted. I got deeper into porn, sexual sin of different kinds, etc. I even learn through the Internet about how to hook up to have sex with other guys in public places and tried it once. It was at that time that now I felt like for sure I was going to hell and there was no way out of what I just had done. So I got even more depressed. I even remember the enemy tempting me to suicide. Now praise God that the Lord kept that from happening and I never tried to.

It was around this time when I was at rock bottom that the Lord brought a new friend my way. He was an awesome man of God around my age and told me how the Lord set him free from drugs. He said that he was a part of this group called Sacred Edge and that it was a youth lead prayer, praise, and worship. So he invited me. I went and I saw things and that I had never seen before. I saw youth and young adults my age on fire for the Lord. I mean truly on fire and not into religion. It was awesome. People actually showed love and talk to you and welcomed you for real. It was actually a joy to sing in praise and in worship. Now my flesh was still trying to fight back, but the Lord started to use this friendship to help me learn new things. My new friend also invited me to go to his church on Sunday and so I did. I loved it. I had never heard such in depth teaching on the word of God to the point I could actually apply it. I also learned that what I was going through was all a lie and that I could be free from this bondage of homosexuality. Now even though I started to get into the Bible more and asked God to set me free on multiple occasions, it didn’t happen immediately. In fact it took four years to get set free from homosexuality. The reason was I had unforgiveness in my heart towards my Dad and others. I also had a lot of religious thinking that was holding me back.

Now during those four years the Lord had to purify my life. He also revealed to me again the vision and calling He had placed on my life. He had shown me this before when I was really young, but Satan did a good job of helping me forget it with my struggles of homosexuality. But the Lord showed me my calling in the middle of my mess to give me a goal that I could see, and go for, and believe in faith for Him to take me to. So the Lord took me through His fire of purification. There were times it was hard because my flesh wanted to fight back, but the Lord was faithful to me even in those times where I would fall. He just picked me right back up again. I just kept surrendering my struggles, my gifts, my talents, everything so that He could purify me and use me for His glory. Now this friend the Lord brought me I also hurt because of some stupid decisions I made, but praise God that He brought reconciliation to this friend and I and we are good friends again. I also remember the Lord having me go to my Dad and forgiving him for what happen in the past and asked for his forgiveness as well. That was so hard for me but the Lord used it to bring reconciliation and also freedom to me. The Lord also started to teach me about the gifts of the Spirit and how powerful they are in our lives when we use them for His glory. Now I know there is the fruit of the Spirit, but I’m talking about the gifts of the Spirit. So that was also a big part of helping me in my walk of freedom.

I remember the Lord having me call Him Daddy because He wanted me to learn that he wasn’t just some far off God that doesn’t care about our personal lives. He wanted me to know that He is my Daddy whether I have one in real life or not. Regardless of whether my Dad was a good Dad or not, the Lord is my Daddy. It has helped in my relationship with the Lord even more to bring healing. So now I call Him Daddy all the time because that is who He is really is to me. I encourage you to try it. You will find you will look at your Father in heaven in a totally new way. Instead of just seeing him as Heavenly Father or in some other generic term, but realizing that He is your Daddy. After those four years and finally being set free from pornography, sexual perversion, and homosexuality, I had a new outlook on life and it was great. I could finally see myself the way God saw me. I had weighed 250 lbs., during my time of struggle, but when the Lord set me free I also lost 80 lbs., over a years time, and look really good if I don’t say so myself. I also started to go to the gym am getting more buff as time goes on. I have been walking in freedom to my past for 2 and a half years going on 3. I praise God for His faithfulness. In these past few years I moved out again with another Christian friend and it was great. Then he got married and the Lord helped me buy my first house, which was a huge step of faith. Again all I can do is praise God over and over again for his faithfulness. So I have lived on my own for the past year in this house and the Lord has used this past year to even take me to new levels with Him in ways I could never imagine.

Now the Lord has been helping me walk in the calling for my life, which is starting a whole media ministry for youth and young adults called Revolution Communications, Inc. It is a whole ministry dedicated to teaching and giving youth and young adults a voice through media. It is also a television network called Revolution Television, and there is so much more. I’m just blessed to be a part of what God is doing. It is exciting.

To end this I just wanted to say a few things. I don’t know if you know people who are struggling with homosexuality or not. They may be other Christians like I was who wanted to break free but didn’t know how. The best thing I can tell you if you know those who live in homosexuality or struggling with it, don’t tell them that they are going to hell. That is not showing love and that is not how Jesus would do it. Not to mention most homosexuals have heard that enough and all it is doing is creating a wall to the things of God instead of breaking down walls. The best thing I can say is love people into the kingdom. We need to love people and not their sin. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers. Their sin and bondage is keeping them from seeing the truth to their freedom. So the best thing you can do is show them love, but you can be honest with them that you don’t agree with what they are doing. But again say it in love. This also goes for anyone struggling with drugs, sexual perversion of any kind (hetero or homosexual), etc. Ultimately life and death are in the power of the tongue. So speak truth, speak life, and show love over people.

The other thing is don’t gossip about people or what they are struggling with, or anything period. If you study the Bible out you will find that gossip is a form of witchcraft. So be careful. Not to mention if someone confides in you something, then keep their trust by not telling people.

For those who are in sin and want or need help out, first off go to your Daddy in heaven for He will welcome you with open arms. The next thing I would do is forgive those who have hurt you in your past. If you can forgive them in person, then do it. If you can’t, go before the Lord and forgive them to the Lord in prayer. Ultimately you have to make a choice. You can either continue in your sin or you can walk in freedom, but the choice is yours. God will not force Himself on you. I would also suggest talking with those you can confide in. For me it was the friends the Lord brought me, and also my Mom. Whoever it is, make sure that it is someone who is a man or woman of God that you trust. It could be a family member, friend, pastor, etc. But talk to someone because the more you can open up about your struggle, the less Satan has to hold onto in secret. I will say this, when you are set free and walking in freedom from your past, it is incredible. In fact, Job 8:7 says “Where I began will seem unimportant, because my future will be so successful.”

I thank you for reading this and I pray that it is an encouragement to you. I’m glad to answer questions or help those who may not know where to turn and need someone to talk to. You are more than welcome to e-mail me at This email address is being protected from spam bots, you need Javascript enabled to view it

God bless you for God has empowered you to prosper!
Brian Corbin

Additional Information:

• Crossroads Community Church in Lawrenceville, GA dedicated a Sunday to the Christian response to homosexuality. You can hear the sermon online if you are interested. It is perhaps the best vocalization of the way we should approach the subject. It is the 10/24/2004 sermon.
• Exodus International is an organization dedicated to helping those who want to leave a homosexual lifestyle do so successfully. Many towns have local chapters and they will be able to provide you with various resources to suit your need.