i am numb and angry

  Ok, I got a little more info. He went Monday night to Kaiser for severe headaches and vomiting. They did an MRI. The results of the MRI were he has 5 new tumors and the growth rate is extreme. They immediately discontinued all cancer treatments and are just making him comfortable at this point. Per Dana's request, they sent him home via ambulance Wednesday.  Hospice was setup later that night. He has allot of family and friends with him. His church has been there singing praise songs beside his bed. He is in and out of consciousness and sometimes blurts out something funny and off the wall, and sometimes little tidbits of wisdom for the kids. Those of us fortunate enough to know Brian's unique sense of humor should get a little teary eyed smile from that.

  I hope I don't sound blunt or uncaring. I love Brian and his family. Just, at this point it seems all that can be done is to make him comfortable till he goes to heaven, or a miracle occurs.

 I know the Cancer fund has been started here and I know firsthand that times are tough financially for them now.  So as it has been stated before by others, if you feel led to give then please do so.

Thanks,
Scott

 I read thru the entire thread tonight. He was very loved here. You guys and Gals mean allot to him. I will try to keep you all updated as often as possible.

Thanks. If there are any specific needs, please let us know. We do really well as a community when we have specific goals and not so well on general ones Beyond that, just remind Dana that the donations are going to Brian's paypal account.

This really hurts...more than I can express...Brian's such a huge part of Tastyfresh and has helped or inspired most of us on here in some form or fashion..and he has ticked a lot of people off on here as well...including me    .  He has personally given me advice....constructive criticism...praise and friendship.  I am still praying for a miracle with him whether or not that includes complete healing or not...when God gains glory from this situation...that's when it's miraculous.  While we will all miss him here incredibly...he won't miss us one bit...he'll be with our Father in heaven...a place where where even the tiniest piece of creation yearns to be.

Brian, we love you brother...and will continue to pray for you and your family.  God is faithful...even through this storm.  I praise God for your life, friendship, testimony and your contributions to this community.  Even though we've never met in person, your friendship through tastyfresh has meant so much to me.  If God decides to bring you home, then we will continue to praise Him for keeping His promise that He made to you when you first believed!!! 

We love you man! 

John Heyer (DJ Coosh)

Thanks Daniel. BTW, welcome back. I've missed you.

Again, let us know if there are any specific needs beyond prayer that we can take care of.

I will be visiting tomorrow, if they are ok with the number of people.
Daniel (d-dub) I hope you can make it out very soon, pending his condition.

We spent the day today with Brian and Dana. I told Brian that I had been on here and was keeping you guys updated on his progress. I don't know if he heard or understood me but I think he did. I also conveyed your continuing Love and prayer support to him.
  I asked Dana if she wanted me to post anything specific. She said "Yes, Please share about the healing that has occurred". You all know that Brian got a Word from The Lord that he would be healed. He truly believed it and so do we. However, God's amazing and perfect plans are not always what we think they should be. Brian has been miraculously healed, just not physically. He was healed spiritually. Which Paul the Apostle would confirm, is a far more precious healing. Brian has been transformed into the man of God that our Father in Heaven meant for him to be. The kind of man we should all strive to be but fall short. The kind of man that puts the needs and cares of others before his own. The kind of man that honors and loves his wife second to only Christ himself. The kind of man that makes a simple day at the park with his kids a priority over the busyness of our daily lives that would steal such moments away from us. You all saw his Faith grow as this ordeal unfolded. He has inspired old and new Christians alike to strive for a higher level of our relationship with Jesus. Although Brian may go be with the Lord because of this, he still received healing. Praise God!!!
 God's plan is still unfolding and is becoming more and more miraculous as the days go on. 

I wanted to share a moment I had with Brian tonight. Through most of the day he was, what seems to be, asleep. He occasionally wakes and mumbles, his eyes don't focus on anything and it just doesn't seem to be Brian anymore. I talked to him and tried to be helpful as much as I could. But just as we were about to leave and say goodbye, he woke up a little. Dana got him some water and asked him if he wanted some apple sauce to eat. We sat him up in his bed and he seemed to become more alert. He asked who was here, and Dana told him the Howey's (us) were there with him. He asked if he and his family had been treating us well (still thinking of others before himself). I assured him we were being treated great and we were good friends. As we all told him goodbye he said "goodbye" to us but then he started to move his right hand up a little. I reached down and shook his hand gently, he smiled and said "drive home safe", I said "I will" and he winked and smiled at me. My heart filled with joy, I am so thankful to God for that moment. I will treasure it.

Brian told me to "drive home safe"... I know Brian too will "drive home safe". Too our TRUE HOME, in the arms of Jesus.  All of us who enjoy the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ will too, someday... "Drive Home Safe".

God Bless you all,
Scott