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« on: March 11, 2007, 08:32:54 PM »

...and I'm not talking about the mushy kind.

I don't know if many of you ever heard of "God's Love Letter"? It's basically a letter composed of several verses from the bible, that sound like a love letter.

At any rate, the other week at youth group Jeff was doing the teaching and read this letter as part of the lesson. Now I had heard this letter several times before, but this last time it took nearly everything in me for me not to start crying.

I've never really felt loved in my life. I know good and well that there are people who love me, but I can't really recall FEELING it. I don't really have much of a family, and never had parents growing up. So you know, as a kid I never got the traditional tuck and kiss goodnight and the "I love you"

I've never really had that one best friend who's gone through almost all of life with me. I do have one best friend of 15 yrs, but she's as sarcastic and cynical as I am.

And any of you who were at C-Stone last year or been to CW know I'm not exactly little miss cutie, so I've never had a guy really love me in the romantic sense either.

So due to all this it's extremely hard for me to accept the fact that God loves me. I'm sorry, and I know this sounds heretic, but I simply don't believe it. At least not on a personal level. I know God loves all of man kind....but it's that same fact that makes me feel like I'm still not "special" in any sort of way.

I guess the real root of all this is a self esteem issue, I don't feel I'm good enough to be loved.

I dunno.....just ranting.
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« Reply #1 on: March 11, 2007, 10:42:22 PM »

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According to I Timothy 2:9, a woman's beauty stems from professing Godliness.  I think most men on here would agree Smiley
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« Reply #2 on: March 11, 2007, 10:43:03 PM »

hey I can understand somewhat, I dont have any best friends at the moment, at least not in person and never experienced a girl loving me either.  My parents cared for me, but God's love is what helped me through high school and keep me alive.  trust in God sister, his love is always there.
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« Reply #3 on: March 11, 2007, 11:44:33 PM »

 Tongue I was reading this post and I thought I would reply, I usually dont unless its about music or something. But this is something I just had to respond to. My story is a lil different from yours, so here it goes. I was raised in a Christian household and had both parents present most of my life. My Father did he the best he could but he didnt know how to show his love for me, and he had the same thing growing aswell. I never had a real reltionship with the opposte sex, and the experaince I have iz pretty bad. My self esteem has always been a problem for me espcially in School getting picked on alot for various reasons. I find it difficult to not only accept Gods love for me, but also to trust him too. I dont think you're a heretic, when you say whats on your heart, it shows character and maturity, and honsty. The only thing I can suggest is that if you pray and ask God to show you, that he does love you. I never tried that but I am going to. And surround yourself with God fearing ppl who will encourage you and stuff. Thaz pretty much all I can say for now. I will keep you in prayer though.  Cool Cool Cool
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« Reply #4 on: March 12, 2007, 01:30:54 PM »

I know God loves all of man kind....but it's that same fact that makes me feel like I'm still not "special" in any sort of way. 

I have a son. When my son was about a year old, my husband and I started trying for #2. I quickly became pregnant and was so excited. But toward the end of my pregnancy I became scared. I wondered "How will I ever love another child as much as I love my son?" It seemed impossible. But after my daughter was born I found out something. I did NOT have to divide my love between my two children, like I thought I would. My love grew, leaving the love I already had for my son intact. It is easy to love my second child as much as my first because my love has multiplied. I love them both so much. I love them differently, but equally. I think it would be unfair of my son to tell me "Mommy, I know you love me and my sister, but you loving her as much as you love me makes me feel like Im not special to you." That would seriously break my heart. Me loving my daughter doesnt affect my love for my son at all.

Now, I know that is on a much smaller scale - but I think it is similar to God's love. He loves us all equally, but He loves each of us wholly. It is not likes God has X amount of love, and that love is divided between all of his children. God loves you RIGHT NOW in the same way that he would love you if you were his only creation  smiley27

Wishing you the best! Take care, babe!  Smiley
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« Reply #5 on: March 13, 2007, 06:14:02 AM »

Hey, I kinda know what you are dealing with. For me, my stupid head gets mixed up and I start to doubt the existance of God. I BELIEVE HE'S THERE, but every once in a while I get thoughts that throw that off. I know that is the devil trying to get me to give up on my faith. It's those times, ironically, that cause me to reaffirm my faith in The Lord and draw closer to Him.

The thing you have to remember is this, Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy. This applies to us in every way of our lives. Satan will do whatever he can to cause us to fall away from God. He will cause us to think that God doesn't love us, or that He doesn't exist.  Whatever he thinks our weak spot is, that is where he will attack.

We also have to remember what Jesus said: "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." and "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

I hope I have been able to put a smile on your face and joy in your heart to know that God loves you.
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« Reply #6 on: March 13, 2007, 07:16:17 AM »

I've pretty much always struggled with the idea that God loves me. It's always felt more like God loves me because He has to, not because He wants to, and that He definitely doesn't like me, just puts up with me. I know it comes from poor self-esteem, a dad who wasn't around much, and living with (and not doing a good job of struggling with) habitual sin.

Being a parent has helped and hurt in this area. Of my two kids, my 8yo daughter is much more difficult and higher maintenance than her 5yo brother. Having her has sort of hurt my view of God's love because there are times when, if I were honest, I'd have to say that I really don't like her. Really, it's her behavior that I don't like, but it can be very hard to separate the two. However, being her dad has helped my view of God in that, as difficult as she can be, there are so many times that I just look at her and my heart melts. Yeah, she can be a really frustrating kid, but I love her and wouldn't trade her for anything.

Do I feel really loved by God? No, pretty much never. I have to accept it on faith that He does because He says He does.

I'll be praying for you. For both of us, actually.
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« Reply #7 on: March 16, 2007, 12:05:42 AM »

hi there,

i don't know you, but i know how you feel to some extent. growing up i was abused and my brother was favored. there were no kids in the neighborhood my age. every guy i ever dated used/cheated on me. i felt like nobody truly loved me - it got so bad that in my 20's i formed a hard shell around my heart. i didn't believe in God and i didn't let anyone, and i mean ANYONE get close to me. then someone told me about Jesus. not a testimony, just His name really. the Holy Spirit did the rest and i got saved and my life was changed forever in how i understood it. God has been showing me that He loves me ever since - He shows Himself in many different ways.

God is not like people - His love never ends. He doesn't love you any less if you aren't perfect, and He doesn't love you any more if you are the best you can be. He just loves you - and you can believe it because the Bible says so. i could show you dozens of Bible verses that says how He delights in you, how He sings over you, how He rejoices over your salvation, how His love is everlasting, how Jesus loves you as the Father loves Him. so many times in the Bible it says these things. well these are for anyone who will receive Him. He wants to show you His love. think about Song of Songs - where the groom is delighting in His beloved - the groom is Jesus and you are the bride (we all are - the church). that's how special He finds us.

my suggestion to you, is that you find some Bible verses about how much God says that He loves you (and He can't lie so you know it's true). write them down on post-it or 3x5 card and take them with you everywhere for a while. meditate on and memorize those Scriptures. think about what they say. pray through the verses - for example, if it says "I have loved you with an everlasting love," (God speaking there), then ask God to help you believe it and to walk in faith knowing that His love is real, has always been there, and will never end. (something like that). the Word is powerful and will help you for sure, especially when combined with prayer.

find some Christian friends also, who can stand with you in prayer and who can understand your need for encouragement. we all need that in our lives, to feel ok with reaching out to other people and saying "hey, i'm hurting here, please help me," without worrying that we will be rejected. the real friends in your life will stand by your side through the good and the bad. but even if no one did, you always have Jesus. He never leaves you, and i mean never. He is standing at your heart, knocking and wanting to come in and dine with you - meaning He wants to spend time with you and love on you. He desires your company all the time and He never tires of hearing you speak to Him.
don't ever give up - God loves you without a doubt, and He made you very special. there are going to be things that you can do to help advance His kingdom that no one else in this world can do. He made you with a special purpose and with love and care He delights over you now and forever.

of course I will pray for you as well that you are able to feel His love for you.
God bless you!
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« Reply #8 on: March 16, 2007, 04:47:11 AM »

I recently got a renewed revelation of God's love...

Some truths that really opened my eyes:

God is love.   He IS love.  It's what makes up God.  And before we were born, He knew everything we would do in our lives and what we would look like, who we would be, and He said, "That person is MY son/daughter!"  He loves us no matter what and even better, he is proud of us when we do His will! 

One thing that I struggled with was condemnation, when I slipped up I condemned myself.  I had the devil telling me that I was no good because of what I had done and that that had taken me so far from God's love.   But the Word tells us NOTHING can separate us from God's Love!! Before we were saved, yes, God could not look at our sin filled lives, but he knew we were sinners when he sent Jesus to cleanse us of our sin BECAUSE He wanted us to be reunited with Him.  You could say he MISSED US (YOU!) so much that He was willing to do whatever it cost to have YOU as his daughter!!   

Now that we are saved, yes, we will mess up, but when we repent God says, "I know you made a mistake, it's forgiven." And he dusts us off and says, "Keep running!" 

Like many others, I never had a real father figure in my life to show me what a father's love is like so understanding or comprehending this was very hard, it was something that I really didn't get until I was in Bible College and we were looking at the truths a million different ways, so I guess like Suzi recommended, make some index cards, go over them a much as possible, meditate on them, write different translations of them, etc etc

This is definately not something that you can just eventually "understand" with your mind but something that one day, much like the other night, there will just be a revelation, like a light bulb coming on, and you'll be like, "Oh wow! That's it means to be a daughter of God and loved by Him?!!? AWESOME!"

It's so hard to comprehend in our world, love that is limitless, boundless, unconditional, and always there.  But that's what God's love is.

You know, don't be discouraged, because God often shows us things in our lives not to put us down, but because He loves us and is saying, "Ok, you've had that hurt or wall in your life for long enough, now it's time to give it up so that you can go further in your relationship with me."

I'll be praying! 
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« Reply #9 on: March 20, 2007, 11:20:37 AM »

just wanted to let you know that you were on my heart this morning and i've been thinking about your situation and praying for you. please don't give up. God does love you and it's very clear in His Word that He does. even if you don't feel it right now emotionally, hold on to His promises in His Word - He cannot lie and they cannot fail.

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« Reply #10 on: March 22, 2007, 11:58:10 PM »

i can relate. been there, done that and bought the Tshirt...still struggle sometimes.   check out this rob bell video:

http://media.nooma.com/2005/October/89db5aec-1624-4ff4-bcf9-36b58b9e15c7.wmv


and remember "I love you buddy! We're gonna make it. Dad knows the way home"
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« Reply #11 on: March 23, 2007, 02:21:45 AM »

i can relate. been there, done that and bought the Tshirt...still struggle sometimes.   check out this rob bell video:

http://media.nooma.com/2005/October/89db5aec-1624-4ff4-bcf9-36b58b9e15c7.wmv


and remember "I love you buddy! We're gonna make it. Dad knows the way home"

Yeah..I love that Nooma video...we show that one every now and then at Winter Camp.
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« Reply #12 on: April 05, 2007, 03:50:28 AM »

We will become a happy ending.  Love comes to you when you need it, and if it comes from God, in copious amounts.  Be steadfast, and don't look down on others happiness:)  It might take a while, but God has a perfect plan for your life.  And little miss cynical is gonna have to take a backseat to little miss sunshine:)
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