Hey Tastypeeps...

My company has me travelling from Indy to Chicago every other week for the next 3 months.
If things work out with the client I'm working with they will want me to move to Chicago this fall.
I'm down with that as long as it's God's will.

I would ask your prayer for:
1) Travel - protection and mercy with schedules - flights are frequently delayed by HOURS out of O'Hare
2) Wisdom - God to provide direction on the outcome of moving or not; and that I would be pliable in His hands to be cool with whatever He determines as the outcome (not to be scared about moving AND/OR not to be bummed about staying - whatever the case may be)
3) God's will to be done with the account I am working on. They've been a difficult client to service and if God wants it to succeed then we need His favor with these folks. OR if it's time for our company to walk away from them, then the wisdom to do so.

Every time I face a decision I always ask God to either open/shut the door of opportunity based on His will, and He has never failed to answer me yet.

thanks all!
Love in Christ,
S.

Thanks. I have been under a lot of stress with the load I am bearing. I really need some people to lift me up in prayer as I feel very discouraged and alone right now. If not for God I wouldn't be able to handle this stuff right now - I feel overwhelmed and don't know how to handle all of this.

I could really use prayer for the following:

1) my brother, who has been diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic/mixed disorder - he just had another manic episode & it is stressful for my parents emotionally & financially as they are his guardians. part of his disorder includes random bouts of "running away" and trying to make it on his own...which he really can't do as he can't hold down normal work for any substantial period of time due to the episodes that he has from time to time (adult tantrums and delusion).

2) my grandma...similar situation as my bro except she was never really diagnosed/treated. my family finally just got her into assisted living...but it's a hardship on my mom. her mom (my gma) won't have anything to do with my mom and is very hateful towards her.

3) my dad & i have an estranged relationship due to some of his "habits". please pray that God helps my heart to heal and that God will bear me up and help me to know how to deal with him with wisdom and the right attitude. right now i'm afraid of him and don't even know how to face him much less talk to him about this stuff. also, similar topic/sins with my uncle (dad's bro). please pray that God touches their hearts and helps them to change as well. i don't know if either of them have been saved. for that matter, most of my family is not saved. so please pray for that as well.

4) my sinuses/allergies. every year from july thru end of september i am miserable. and this year is no different. indy is not kind to my head...i feel pain and pressure in my neck, eyes and sinuses constantly, it makes me feel sluggish most of the time and nothing seems to help.

5) my singleness. it's tough to bear that i keep getting older and God has not provided a husband/children. i don't feel led at all to be single so it's a struggle for me to accept that i'm past 30 and no prospects are in sight. part of my sadness about this has to do with the family stuff. i keep hoping that maybe God will restore some of what i missed out on with a 'normal' family of my own. i thought that having a husband by my side would help me to face some of these dark places in my family. i know that Christ is enough...but He isn't physically here in a body to stand with me and hold my hand when it gets tough or to speak up for me to my family when they get out of line. it's also hard to bear that God has me alone here in Indy without any really close friends. everyone at church is either much younger than me, or married and or with kids and don't really have any time for me.

i'm frustrated - i don't know why God is letting me face all of this stuff at once. i know that He is a good God and there must be a reason though.

thanks all for letting me air all of my uncomfortable stuff.
any prayer is much appreciated.
S.

oh my, hang in their hun.  I hope their is a little less drama in your life.  Will be praying for you.  Make sure you go to Genos on rush or the one by hard rock, or pizza due.  Hopefully good pizza will chear you up.  I know it does me good.

Hey sweetie,

Just remember, this too shall pass.  It all does.  It really does.  You just have to keep saying that mantra, even when things look their toughest. 

Living in Indy....  It may have been just a passing point for you, not your destination, which is why you didn't really "connect."  I think I can feel it, too, here in C-bus, so I know what you mean.  You're really not alone.  There are other people like you, you just have to find them, or let fate bring them to you, which it will, in time.  Keep yourself occupied in the meantime.

The dating scene....  Well, I know you don't like dating.  I really don't, either, but sometimes there aren't any other ways to meet/get to know guys.  I've been dating hardcore for the past several months... we're talking dozens of guys.  Have I found "The One"?  I don't think so.  I know how you feel, but I've seen what's out there, which isn't much, in my neck of the woods, at least.  Not very impressive talent, to me.  I'm very comfortable being by myself and with my two cats than with some loser who will only bring me down, which they will.  They all will.  Either that, or I'd be living a half-life which isn't right.  If anything, all this dating has left me even more content with being by myself because I'm severely unimpressed with what I've seen so far.  Yeah, it would be nice to find Mr. Right, but until then, one has to be happy, busy, and occupied with their own life, which I like to think that I am.  I know I only want to marry someone if and ONLY if I meet someone that's worthy of it.  If that doesn't happen, I'll have to look to other things to fulfill my life.  Not many are, and I'm extremely selective.  I don't want to feel like I have to settle, lower my standards, or end up with someone who's a leftover or a loser. then have a life with someone that I'm even less content with having than what I have now. 

Hope this helps.  You're not the only one out there.  Some people are just lucky in some areas, or fate smiles on them.  As for the rest of us, we have to make the good things happen for us.  I know, because that's what I've done, and now my life is great, even without a main man... that is, except for my cats.     Just remember, it's a choice.  It's all a choice.  To enjoy life means choosing to do so, even with dreams thwarted.  I have quite a few of those, too, so I can understand.  And some of those dreams I know will never come to pass, but one just has to pick up and keep moving on.  Come up with new dreams.  I've been down this road before.  I really try not to think about the things gone wrong or awry and instead focus on the good things, or just keep busy and totally immerse myself in whatever I'm involved in.  It's not denial, it's just choosing to enjoy life at whatever stage you're at. 

Our pastor just finished a sermon series on the life of Joseph. When he did the sermon on adversity, it reminded me of the song "Better Than I" from the "Joseph: King of Dreams" soundtrack. Joseph sings it while in the Egyptian prison. I've found that song challenging yet encouraging since the first time I heard it. These were the only lyrics I could find on the 'Net; I hope they're correct....

I thought what I did was right,
I thought I had the answers,
I thought I chose the surest road,
But that road brought me here..

So I put up a fight,
And told you how to help me,
Now just when I had given up,
The truth is coming clear,

You know better than I,
You know the way,
I let go the need to know why,
For You know better than I.

If this has been a test,
I cannot see the reason,
But maybe knowing I don't know,
Is part of getting through.
I tried to do what's best,
And faith has made easy,
To see the best thing I can do,
Is put my trust in You.

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky.
I saw a bird and thought that i could follow,
But it was You that taught that bird to fly,
If I let You reach me, will You teach me.

For You know better than I,
You know the way,
I let the need to know why,
I take what answers You supply,
You know better than I,
You know better than I.

hey suzi,
praying for you online...  God is your strength and your strong tower. 

Missed you at C-stone.. met you there several years ago.

There are lots of seasons in life, and this is a tough one.  Hang tight and hold onto God.  Speak truth, and ignore the lies of the enemy.

peace girl,
jeff

i have a daily Scripture calendar at work...today's verse caught my attention.
i don't know if God is trying to tell me something, but the verse was this

"'I will plant them on their land, And they will no more be plucked up out of their land which I have given them,' says the LORD your God." Amos 9:15

i don't know if this was meant to be as a word of encouragement from God, or just coincidental. i've  heard things about my future from God in the past on things but i never want to be presumptuous and just take for granted that i'm really hearing Him when it might just be what my flesh wants to hear.

if this is a word from Him, then perhaps where i'm at now isn't where God is going to plant me long term and maybe this place is a waystation. i've thought that many times in the past because i never really seem to connect with anyone (not for a lack of trying).

if i look back at my life...i don't see loads of regret or sadness about what i missed in life. the trials i went through made me the person i am today. i just don't know how to deal with some of the things in today. i get caught in the rut of thinking...this is all there is for me in this life, and i need God to help me to stop doing that.

thanks everyone for your kind encouraging words. you have no idea how meaningful it can be. i just read an article today about the "cyber" fellowship, where Christians who never meet actually influence one another in good ways. that's cool and it made me think of all of you. as different as we all are, we are part of one body and it's nice to have an outlet to ask for prayer and a sounding board to get a proper reflection of the condition of one's heart without being afraid to be vulnerable. i've been deeply wounded by so many people, and some of them Christians...that this is a huge thing for me to even admit the shadows that cast over my heart.

if i look back at my life...i don't see loads of regret or sadness about what i missed in life. the trials i went through made me the person i am today. i just don't know how to deal with some of the things in today. i get caught in the rut of thinking...this is all there is for me in this life, and i need God to help me to stop doing that.

As far as how to deal with some of the things in today.  The best thing I personal think you can do is to first accknowdlege spelling sorry- What it is that you are struggling with.  I personaly stuggle with my eyes and my dark heart.  So with that being said, once I acck. it and give it over to God, Pray and ask Him to help me.  I usually ask if it's his will that it be taken away or that I may learn form the situation.  This is a great pray that has been a big blessing, God  can I minister out of overflow so that I know that it's You and not me.  I'm standing firm in your will for my life and the things you want me to do.  If you keep your focus on Him and not look around at all the crap that is going on you may have some victory, it's very hard to do.  But if you stay blind to the world and and focus soly on Jesus and ask for His help no matter how trival you think it is you will have joy and peace.  Learn to let crap go.  I trouble letting go the jerk that cuts in front of me.  But I have been the jerk cutting people off so, if I can learn to control myself and my actions and not let other people attuides and dissing cause me grief, life is usually pretty good.  I get too emo about alot of crap.  If I coud disaccoitae myself from things.  I would have alot of peace.  You just have to let go and know you are not in control He is.  If I get this down on a consisent bais I let you in on the secreat.  For now struggle and pain is justifcation for my need of a savior.  I know I'm in Him because the World hates me.  Praying for you that His lite would shine on you.