I can relate to no money and not knowing what the future holds, all I can say, you're in my prayers and concur with what kairsie said.

  hugs for Doug!! Dude I'm still praying for you. Like Chris said I'm jealous of you cause i grew up in California and I love my home town of San Diego....I hope God shows you soon what you need to do. Tasty has your back bro 

Praying mate. Rest. Let Papa's love heal your wounds.

praying for you bro

 

This too shall pass.  I know it doesn't seem like it while you're going through it, but that's one promise I can make to you. 

It'll get better, maybe not in a way that you'd imagine, but it will.  You'll look back and be happy how far you had come.  Really.

Just keep a positive attitude and do what you can that brings joy to you.  Try not to think about what bothers you so much.  I know it's hard, but that's a way to keep sanity too.

Take care, and blessings on you.

Hi.
I usually hear what is happening on the boards, and rarely feel like my input will significantly add to what is happening.  I, however, want to let you know what an important role you play in our family's life.  Your picture has hung on our refrigerator along with only a handful of other pictures of our dear friends.  We pray for you regularly.  Our daughter sometimes points to your picture and asks us who you are.  We told her this week we needed to pray for you, and she knew who we were praying for.  Jeremy misses your calls.  This is not to lay blame, but just to let you know how important you are to our whole family.  I don't do much during the week other than drive my children around and change poopy diapers, but I have been praying for you the whole week as you come to mind when I am driving around.  I was worried when we didn't know exactly where you were.

I also wanted to share that about ten years ago before Jeremy and I were together, I thought I should take off and I did.  I got a one way ticket to Scotland and 1000 dollars, and left a message on my dad's machine on Sunday morning that I was in the airport and about to take off in the plane.  This was the first time he had ever heard I was going.  I sold all of my furniture and things because it seemed like a good idea at the time.  I am not saying what you did is wrong, just that we've all done things.  I don't know about the other stuff, but just wanted to say that don't go further down beating yourself up over what you've done now.  I ended up working illegally for cash in an Indian restaurant run by Pakistanis who refused to speak English to me.  I honestly didn't know how I would ever make it home.  Now I am just babbling.

God is good.  I've had some really crappy times, including a lot of this last year.  You are a dear person to us, and Jeremy misses you.  I, even though we don't know each other well, miss hearing what you have been doing from your regular calls.  We have been looking forward to seeing you at Cornerstone for a long time now.  Jeremy specifically said he could not wait to hang out with you.  I hope that you still come.

Heather