hey,

been experiencing a boatload of anger and anxiety issues lately, can't really attribute it to any one thing but its a bit distressing and i think because i'm aware of it, it just triggers my anxiety about it.  i have nothing to complain about because life is pretty good as a whole.  it just bugs me that i don't have more control over my life or how i feel...

oh, Joel, none of us are in control. the feeling of wanting to be in control is that of sin wanting to make "ME" the middle of things; and what's more it happens to all of us. :)

God has blessed you so much with talent and giftings that most of us would envy, but the trick is to be content in all things and rest on God's control.

I will pray for you.

praying bro

I can relate at time Joel. I can relate. Praying.

thanks guys. 

i think part of it was the complete switch from a 2 yr school schedule to a work schedule overnight.  not completely sure how it relates but its been different to say the least. 

@ Drew
i realize the control aspect you mention, i just don't think God controls everything otherwise he wouldn't give us choices you know?  there's a balance there between trusting that God's got your back and making right choices i think and lately some of my choices haven't been ideal, not that i can prove it, i'm just not confident in that.  anyway, i need to find the balance in my head somewhere and connect it with my heart and feelings.  also, talent isn't indicative of confidence, something i lack in heaps despite what most may perceive :-)   thanks though i need to work this out and this helps i appreciate it.

You should have gone on my plan. Graduate... get a job at the school... no change to lifestyle ;)

I can totally relate with you Joel. My last semester at school was intense. It was like running a marathon every day. I cannot say that I wasn't blessed in my efforts, as I was fast-tracked to a FT job within days of graduation. The stress from extremely high expectations and looming deadlines can be brutal to what seems to be the best thing that ever happened to you. There's nothing that can prepare you for the barrel fulls of responsibility that life can slam you with at times. Sometimes you just have to admit how incapable and insignificant you are and just let God take the wheel.

I will pray for you Joel. Hope things turn out alright.  8)
Phil 4:6-7

maybe you should've move closer to campus or got a car?  ;D

sorry, couldn't resist.

back on topic....

Joel, I know we have our own choices to make, it's one of life's profound mysteries that few (if none) have got their heads round. But even those choices we make in the dimension of time are not completely "God-free" as God is outside of time... So therefore everything we do is under his control. Also if you are saying that God is not in total control, then how can Jesus have defeated sin? I've been blessed recently by thinking this thru on the great commission, which doesn't start with "Go and preach...." it starts with "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me..."

I really feel like I can relate to you in this Joel. I've been experiencing a lot of these things myself, on and off for over a year. I just figure that I need to let my faith build up by spending time with other christians whenever I can. It's not always easy, but it always seems to be worth it.

For me, anxiety and anger come from the anticipation of great things, they are both made manifest in my heart because I lack the faith to believe that God means business in my life. The time factor is what kills me in all of this. Waiting on God to make things start happening in my life is such a huge test that God keeps putting me through over and over again. Proverbs 13:12

I don't know what causes these things for you, but I will be praying for you.