just wanted to say that I am safe in california.  I am in fresno recouping at my brother and sister-in-law's house.

I am still very very confused about where to go with my life.  I probably am going to get some counseling from a pastor in my brother's church.

I would still covet your prayers.  I do not at all know what the future holds.  I currently have no money and may have obviously lost my job.  I dunno.

I think things will settle out next week and become much much more clear.  I just have to remain positive and trust in God.  He is the only one who can truely help me right now.  I must depend on HIM

I know things wicked suck right now, but I admire you for your faith in the light at the end of the tunnel. Also, I think you temporary move, drastic as it may seem, was very wise and courageous. You knew what you needed to keep your sanity, and you just went and did it. Just take it one day at a time kid. :hug:

First let me just say how jealous of you I am. I miss California with my whole heart.

Next, I am praying that you find direction and God's will for your life. I know what it's like to feel like you have no clue what you should be doing. Granted I have never gone through what you are, but I have been in a very helpless situation and had to fully rely on God to pull me through.  :hug:

I can relate to no money and not knowing what the future holds, all I can say, you're in my prayers and concur with what kairsie said.

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You're getting alot of hugs right now.  :laugh:

 :hug: hugs for Doug!! Dude I'm still praying for you. Like Chris said I'm jealous of you cause i grew up in California and I love my home town of San Diego....I hope God shows you soon what you need to do. Tasty has your back bro  8)

Doug...I'm not one to go ranting on some spiritual mumbo jumbo rant...but I just want to tell you that I admire your faith....everything may be stripped away but you are still hanging on (more than I would probably do in your shoes).

I believe you will do...not actually I think you are doing incredible things for God that others see.  There is a call/pull...whatever you want to call it on you.  I saw it last year at Cstone.

Rest my friend...let us know how we can help.

Praying mate. Rest. Let Papa's love heal your wounds.

Praying for you, Doug. Take care of yourself. I think talking with a pastor could be a good idea. Good spiritual counsel never hurts.

praying for you bro

Doug, you rock. Call me anytime... even if it's 3 am. I'm here for you. Don't stay gone longer than you need to :) I've been praying for you 2-3 times a day.

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This too shall pass.  I know it doesn't seem like it while you're going through it, but that's one promise I can make to you. 

It'll get better, maybe not in a way that you'd imagine, but it will.  You'll look back and be happy how far you had come.  Really.

Just keep a positive attitude and do what you can that brings joy to you.  Try not to think about what bothers you so much.  I know it's hard, but that's a way to keep sanity too.

Take care, and blessings on you.

hEY dOUG,
YOU ARE 3.5-4HRS AWAY FROM ME.
There are all kinds of events happening down here.
An event this Sunday with AJ.
Would love to finally meet in person.
Praying for God to bring hope, healing, direction and renewal.

Hi.
I usually hear what is happening on the boards, and rarely feel like my input will significantly add to what is happening.  I, however, want to let you know what an important role you play in our family's life.  Your picture has hung on our refrigerator along with only a handful of other pictures of our dear friends.  We pray for you regularly.  Our daughter sometimes points to your picture and asks us who you are.  We told her this week we needed to pray for you, and she knew who we were praying for.  Jeremy misses your calls.  This is not to lay blame, but just to let you know how important you are to our whole family.  I don't do much during the week other than drive my children around and change poopy diapers, but I have been praying for you the whole week as you come to mind when I am driving around.  I was worried when we didn't know exactly where you were.

I also wanted to share that about ten years ago before Jeremy and I were together, I thought I should take off and I did.  I got a one way ticket to Scotland and 1000 dollars, and left a message on my dad's machine on Sunday morning that I was in the airport and about to take off in the plane.  This was the first time he had ever heard I was going.  I sold all of my furniture and things because it seemed like a good idea at the time.  I am not saying what you did is wrong, just that we've all done things.  I don't know about the other stuff, but just wanted to say that don't go further down beating yourself up over what you've done now.  I ended up working illegally for cash in an Indian restaurant run by Pakistanis who refused to speak English to me.  I honestly didn't know how I would ever make it home.  Now I am just babbling.

God is good.  I've had some really crappy times, including a lot of this last year.  You are a dear person to us, and Jeremy misses you.  I, even though we don't know each other well, miss hearing what you have been doing from your regular calls.  We have been looking forward to seeing you at Cornerstone for a long time now.  Jeremy specifically said he could not wait to hang out with you.  I hope that you still come.

Heather

I'm glad to hear that you made it to California safe and sound. I can only imagine what it is that you're going through right now.... however, Father God recently today has placed in my heart to pray for you, and I pray the Peace over you, that surpasses all understanding.  :hug: You, and Aric are at the top of my prayer list, and my family is praying for you guys as well. I don't know of anything else I could do for you guys at the moment, except to just pray... "For I know whom, I have believed, and am persuaded, that he is able, to keep that, which I commited, unto him against that day" and also "For his eye is on the Sparrow, and I know he watches over you".

Keep us posted, and I also pray that Father God will give you direction, guidance, and blessings.  :)

just wanted to give a brief update:

I am in California and have been spending time with my brother and his family.
I went to church Saturday night with him and his family so that was good.

My work knows of my situation and has placed me on leave.

I am seeing a doctor tomorrow that can help me get a medical leave of absence.

Other than that I still would love your prayers.  I do not have the confidence to talk to really anyone without crying and having a total breakdown.  It took everything in my power to talk to my children on Friday.

I am not sure what the future holds but I know I need help and that starts tomorrow.

doug

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Prayer Warriors Mobilize!!!! got your Back Doug  :hug:

Still praying, Doug.  :hug: Any new updates?

Praying for you Doug.

Sorry you have to go thru this.  Praying for you Doug.  Hang in their bro.

sort of an update:

doing a little better this week.  I went to the dr. and I am on some medication for heavy depression.

In general I need to stay in Fresno for a good while for medical reasons.  Other than that my brother and his wife are taking very good care of me.

thanks for all the prayers.  they mean the world to me.  Tastyfresh has been my home for 10 yrs....  means so much to me.


doug

I'm glad your getting better man  8) downhill from here we can pray for  :hug:

and we're here ready to pray for ya for another 10 years  ;D

still prayin

So Doug, don't you love California? You are in Fresno...you should take a road trip to San Francisco and enjoy some fresh Clam Chowder in a warm out of the over bread bowl on Pier 39. Then check out Bubba Gump's, the resturant inspired by Forrest Gump. GREAT seafood.

If you need a SF tour guide, pay for my plane ticket!  8)

yeah... I don't think doug's up for any kind of sight-seeing right now.

would help him take his mind off stuff. I know when things don't go right for me, all I want to do is find a little get-away to clear my head. besides, it's DARN good chowder.

I enjoyed Pier 39 myself. I also liked the beaches....call me crazy, though the sand wasn't all that great looking at the time.... Id still come back.

Still praying... I know what heavy depression is like... I'm giving you a big hug right now...  :hug:

hope you are doing ok Doug

doug.... i can safely say that i know excatly what your going thru.......   ??? :laugh:

luv ya man, u know im prayn 4ya, big  :hug: !

the only advice i have for you is....
read the Word... it gives us strength to fight off the devils flaming darts.

Hey Doug. You'll have to give everyone an update on how you are doing.

Still praying for you man. Call me. Email me. PM me. We need you back.

Same goes here, man. 785-215-2680 I love you, dude.

We all still love ya Doug....Can't wait to hang out with you again!

hope you're doing alright buddy, thinking about you.

Doug....

Was just thinking about how you are doing, and hope all is  well with you, and if not then at least better.

I'm not one to pray a lot, simply bc it slips my mind, but know your in them whenever I do.

Also, I vow to strike down midget opression wherever it rears its ugly head in my quest to help banish your downed spirits by making you pee yourself with laughter.

That's right. Laughter. And pee. Get ready.

:-)